As my little one grew older and significantly more verbal, I could no longer pull it off and had to look for childcare. After lots of research, I found a place I felt good about and scheduled care for two afternoons a week - intending to keep all telephone communication and meeting appointments confined to those time periods.
On our first official day, I took her in and went over the detailed instructions I had left the day before two or three more times and then just sort of stood there. After an uncomfortable silence I said, "So...wait... I'm supposed to just walk out of the door and leave my baby here...with people I've only met 3 or 4 times?"
Don't get me wrong. I knew how it was supposed to go but at that moment, the thought of doing that just seemed so crazy. The sweet lady gave me a strange look and said, "yep..that's usually how it works."
My response: "I think I'll just hang out in the hallway. I bought my laptop. I'll be working so just holler if you need me."
I did that for about month.
I laugh when I remember that first day.